Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Jailbird here and in use

We got the Jailbird last week and have had it locked on since. So far it is fitting well other than one ball pulling out or should I say popped out getting out of the truck,ouch. Cleaning is great because of the open design. Keyholder can get to the cock though the bars  she likes that. Most of the time I dont know its on, in the morning I know it is there but no where like the plasic cb-xxxx devises. My sleep is not the best anyway so I wake a number of though out the night so not that cage is waking me or not. There a small piece welding slag that got missed when I asked them about they said they would take care of it no problem and gave a few ideas how to get it off, it is not a real problem so when we send it back to get it fitted for spikes they will fix it. We plan to get some photos tonight and will post therm when we do.

I got a bench a few weeks back but it was made for a very tall person so i changed it so it could fit a more aveage person the plan is to test it tonight too.

locked in the bird

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Service-oriented Top? Conflicted Bottom?

When I first started doing BDSM stuff and meeting people in the local community, people liked to ask what I was "in to" or if i was a top/bottom/submissive/dominant... the question always made me squirm--just felt very personal. I'm fine with the question now, but still don't have an answer--Switch defines me best, and that's what I call myself when asked. But there's a lot of gray area there...
     Last night we had some time to spare since my daughter was spending time with her dad, we didn't have any plans, and seemed to have enough energy to stay awake past 9 pm. We decided to mess around in bed for a while. The Locked One has mentioned wanting more intensity, so thought I'd try to provide that last night.  I ended up tying the Locked One to the bed, shoving a vibrating ass plug inside him, and clipping clothespins to his nipples and scrotum. Then I took a long hot shower so he could spend some time experiencing those sensations.
     After the shower, I put on the spiked rink around the base of his cock, which really bit into him when i sucked his cock for a while. I finally removed it when he began straining against the wrist and ankle cuffs. Then I took off the clothespins--somewhat gently--and then sat on his face for a while. That ride lasted a while, then I slid down to his cock and rode that for a while. Biting is always fun to me, so I did more of that than usual--his shoulders and inner thighs are my favorite spots. At some point I untied him, and we fucked long enough that we were drenched in sweat when we came all at once. I was physically exhausted, but didn't feel done with him yet.

    After about fifteen minutes, I pulled my big purple dick out, and convinced him to let me fuck his ass for a while. Although he seemed resistant at first, he eventually let me punch my way in [he kept saying, "OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD], and I rode him hard. (I couldn't believe he let me do that!) Then I got horny all over again, and had to grab the hitachi and shove that between my legs for a moment. Insert roaring orgasm #2 here. Then the Locked One started getting hard again, and managed another orgasm as well. From my vantage point, it looked like an excrutiating experience, but he didn't seem to mind.
     My favorite thing to do is ask him questions when he's at the peak of an intense situation. I want to know exactly what is going on inside his head, and want him to focus on the pain he's feeling. Seeing him struggle to find the words makes me giggle. His brain is mostly in fight-or-flight mode at that point in time, and so asking him to process and verbalize what he's experiencing requires that he use a completely different part of his brain.  To a lesser degree, it's like asking someone who just stepped away from a car accident to work through an algebraic equation. Possible, but extremely difficult.  Sometimes I ask him to name some of the feelings he has at that moment, or I point out the irony of the situation--that he has asked for this, and I'm just giving him what he wants, and how generous it is of me to do so.
     Which brings me to the inspiration for the title of this post. I often feel like topping is about servicing, or giving. I was talking to a very experienced pro-domme a few months back, and she said, "Domme-ing is essentially mothering."  She wasn't talking about fetishes that involve diapers or being literally mothered. She felt that dominating someone was about understanding their needs, giving them that experience, and taking care of them through that process, so they could be free to surrender their need for control.  It was a thought-provoking conversation, as it always is with this person, enough so that I'm still chewing on it.
     When I'm topping, it feels like I'm servicing, and when I'm bottoming, I feel like I'm handing over something that I can't wait to rid myself of--but scared to lose at the same time. Either way, it's all fucked up and confusing. I don't care about the label and don't need to have a name for how i top or bottom, but I am surprised at all the gray area between the two roles.

New Device

     The Locked One and I have been tossing around the idea of getting a different device for a while. The PA-5000 is lots of fun, but would like something more secure. So last week we ordered the Jailbird from Mature Metals http://www.maturemetal.com/chastity-devices/jail-bird.  It should arrive in 2-3 weeks.
Mature Metal Jail Bird Custom Crafted Male Chastity Device

We've tried a number of devices, but this one seems like it will meet our needs. And, I liked the optional spikes:

Spike Strip for Stainless Steel Chastity Devices

    Looking forward to its arrival!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

new toys after a 6 month wait





We finaly got the dildos we ordered in April about a month ago  we have been having fun with them   more later

locked

broken pa 5000

We were playing one night last week, my task from Keyholder was to get her of off with the cage still on. She was going to let me use part of my cock to do this the hook was removed and she tried to slide the cage down on my cock, but i was starting to get hard as she struggled to push it down one of the seams cracked. we took it off as pinching skin in the cracks is not fun at all.

I was loosely tried to the bed by neck and one leg. I was able to move around the bed some but only in a small area. Then the Erostec was hooked up to the butt plug to distract me as i worked on the task to make her cum with my hands, 2 dildos she picked, and 1/2 of my cock. After working for some time she added the Hitachi for me to use. Her first orgasm came quick and hard so I started on a second one. It always takes longer for that but was able to get the job done with tools given and my ass being pounded with the Erostec.

I was able over the weekend to take the cage completely apart, clean it, and re-glue it back together. So this morning I was relocked back into the cage awaiting what may or may not happen. We are without kid most of the time for the next week and we have a play party on sat so will see what fun we can get in to over the next days.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Toys

The We-Vibe is a fun little toy, but didn't get me to where I needed to go. It kept sliding out when I was using the strapon on the Locked One. So, we need to keep trying. We're getting some more fun dildos on Tuesday, and will post photos here when they arrive. Words just won't do them justice. :)  In the mean time, I'll be blowing my nose, and waiting for this cold to pass. Had I been feeling better, this past weekend would have been filled with a lot more fucking. Oh well.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

New Toy Coming Soon

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Thursday, September 23, 2010

Back in the cage

I've locked him up again, just been a few days, but he reported earlier today that he was happy in his hardened, drippy state. He won't like what I write here, but the irony is just too good to pass up. So I will describe what I think is completely hilarious here in this blog.

He typically starts his work day around 9 or 10 in the morning, which leaves ample time for looking at porn. He is NOT a morning person, so from about 7:30 until 9, he spends the morning sipping coffee in his bathrobe, sitting mostly upright at what I refer to as his Captain's Station. He looks at porn on his computer in his big leather chair and desk and 873" monitor. He looks at kinky naked ladies, typically who are in bondage, typically who are bottoming/subbing, etc., WHILE HE's LOCKED UP!!! This makes me laugh, it's so switchy!

Our relationship and the way we play is full of paradox, and I like it that way. It was not by design; it just evolved that way. Part of the reason is because we're both switches--and switch very easily.

He's a bit territorial about his captain's station, but probably wouldn't agree with that statement. We joke about it, but seriously I try to avoid using that computer unless I know he's going to be gone for a while. Otherwise he hovers around me, not on purpose in a bad way, just in a way that makes it clear that he wants to be in the chair, which makes me lose any amount of concentration I have. He likes to be in charge in some ways, but not in others. As his mother told me on one occasion, "He always did his own thing." If only she knew...

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Five more days...

     Interesting how life happens, isn't it? Ya know how I was whining a couple of blogs back about five days being way too long without traditional penis-vagina sex??? And, how five days was a long friggin' time to go for me, and I declared to myself that I don't want to play that way anymore???? Well, turns out the Locked One went out of town a few days ago in order to attend a funeral and visit family. We will be apart for a total of five nights. I feel relieved that I figured out what I wanted from chastity play last week, otherwise, we would have parted while being extremely under-sexed. And that would have pissed me off. The whole situation was just a reminder to me that life is too short to not have fun.
     I didn't go with the Locked One out of town because my daughter started school this week, and consequently, I ended up spending more time than usual with my ex-husband, both in-person and on the phone. The contact was all fine and good, and by that I mean I didn't have to call the police and press any charges against him, but the contrast between my old life and my current life was so cartoonishly evident to me, that I'm not sure there's words to describe it. I can't get over how freakishly lucky I am in my current life and relationship, on so many levels.
     My current happy state didn't come easy. I don't particularly like that feeling of being vulnerable with a man, putting trust in him, taking a risk knowing that I might end up hurt, ya know, all that good stuff. However, staying safe and avoiding all that hard stuff would have kept me stagnant.  And here's what I personally really like about chastity play: I think that it showed me on a very primal level what trust is, and how to trust and be trusted in a relationship. There's a lot of BDSM play that creates a similar dynamic, but only for short periods of time, and often has the feel of an endurance test to me. So chastity play feels more cerebral in the way the power is exchanged, than in other types of play.
     I'm a little bit obsessed with the reasons behind why I like chastity play so much, which is part of why I wanted to start this blog. Maybe the obsession comes from a feeling that I have something to learn from chastity play about trust and control. I like that chastity play eroticizes the things that I struggle with, and creates a good thing out of a bad thing.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Another Try

Last week I decided I would deny the Locked One orgasms for about a week. I wanted to push myself and him, and see how intensified our horniness could get, and then have a big fuck fest this weekend. Although I was using other means for satisfying myself, it's never as good as cumming with the Locked One. So I knew it would be hard for me to not have that for a week. And up until yesterday, I was doing fine with it--missed the sex but didn't have a lot of time to notice, and had some fun tease and denial plans I was looking forward to. But yesterday was past my limit, and I just wanted to have sex. Nothing kinky or complicated, just sex with him. And I didn't want to be in charge anymore, or have to initiate anything. I spent time with some friends in the evening, and when I returned home, I just felt sad. The fun thing that I look forward to every day wasn't in the plans, and so I had to decide what I wanted to do. I ended up handing the key over to him, and we decided to take a break for a while. Why is this harder for me than him? Isn't it supposed to be the other way around?

I've kept him locked up for the better part of a month, but I've unlocked him a lot, and don't feel denied anything when we play that way. And if I've wanted to bottom to him, I just tell him, and he happily obliges. We were both happy with the arrangement. But I have been reading a lot of chastity blogs lately, and felt like I wanted to push limits a bit and see how far we could take things. I've discovered that we are not your typical chastity players. And I'm glad about that.

Five days and counting...

So... here we are, all locked up, for five days. I'm really horny, and I'm trying to stick this out, but I've forgotten why I wanted to go at least a week. I can't see through all the horny that's floating around my brain. I just feel out of sync, and kind of disconnected from him, rather than experiencing "intensified intimacy and attentiveness," which is the claim made by lots of chastity-device manufacturers. I'm not looking to improve my relationship, he's already attentive, and there's no shortage of intimacy between us. Just want to have some kinky fun. And I'm not seeing the fun of this.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

More Locking

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Friday, August 13, 2010

working too well???? an bag time

We are doing locking with the pa 5000 still  but it may fit too well. I have had it on most of the time past 2 weeks. For the most part i never know its there. One of the things I  like about being locked up is they I am slightly aroused be the device. This time I forget I am even wearing its at all.  It is kinda funny for so long finding a device that was not painful in the morning, that fit and did not pinch or did not work for some reason has been impossible so now it works too well. I guess that is not all bad

 I  still would like to try a few different devices,  some that i am looking at is  a Lori's  #11,#12c and #12d.  Keyholder is not as jazzed about them as i am, each for different reasons.  Money is one reason for not getting one right now so i hope I keep looking to see what is out there.

tonight i think she has a heavy scene planned for me i have really busy past few weeks  and asked her if she would plan something for me. we have been using a body bag from a friend  http://www.maxcita.com/cottonbb/cotbbpsychoHD/ctbbpsychohd.htm
I am hoping to spend a long time in the bag  along with tease and torcher. It is a great bag and wished we have one ourselves yet something to add to the wish list.


locked and loading  (today anyway)

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

night of fun

We have been busy with moving and some events around here so have not been doing a lot of locking. but we did some some lately after a a few days of tease and denial she tied me spead eagle standing along side the bed blindfolded. with her laying on the bed I had lick her body and find all the raspberries she had put on her self and lick them off she said where to raspberries were is areas she wanted me too to spend time licking. I think she add some as we went along so it took me some time to get all of them and lick the areas.




After I was done with that she had me fuck her till she came, but i was not allowed to come yet. We normally come together almost every time we have sex so not coming with her takes some work, she did cum and i was able to keep fucking her for awhile after then. she had me stand up still tires to the bed and masturbate so she could watch me. she love to watch me jack off one time she had me video tape myself jacking off continually for 30 minutes without cumming and send her the video . so after jacking off for awhile i came all over her belly and chest still with the blindfold on i had to lick all of the cum off her
 
Locked

Sunday, April 18, 2010

pa-5000 still working well and more

We are still using the pa-5000, it still works the best for us. We have tried to use our Lori's Tube and our Curve in the past few weeks but for every day use, it still works very well. We did do the chastity workshop in March and it seemed to go well. We had lots of different devices for the work shop I was able to borrow from a few different people.




This last week there has been lots of tease and denial, then last night strapped down to a table, with electric butt plug, lots of stroking. The plug was removed with a bit of panic as the plug had sucked all the way in my ass, but came out fine. Then her purple dick and harness came out for some fucking and stroking, until i lost my load all over the place. BIG FUN



Later at the same party someone was looking for a cock to suck on by a guy who was being fucked and stoked by two ladies. He had been locked up for a week or two. He was in a sling, the 2 gals worked the lower-half of him as I fucked his mouth till they finished him off.



One of the other nights we played at home, about a week ago, Key holder tied me down to the bed once agian for ass fucking and stroking. Part way though she starting using some blue icy hot gel as lube on my cock and balls. iIt gives a very nice burning that I like a lot. we have about 6 different kinds of hot gels and creams. Some are pure pain othes are nice burning feeling. If i am blindfolded i don't know it is coming till the burn starts, unless I smell it, and then never sure which one it is going to be. More BIG FUN.



Today I was able to buy a pair of Boot Suspension Cuffs from a friend at a good price we hope the test them out tonight. http://www.stockroom.com/Boot-Suspension-Cuffs-P1823.aspx



More later, the next month will be busy again as we are moving to a new bigger place that we both are looking forward to.



locked (just not right now)

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Been a while...

Too long, actually, since writing about chastity play. There's something about going through somewhat stressful life events (like changing jobs) that causes the top in me to hide. So there hasn't been much locking going on during the past month. And since the Locked One has seemed to have gotten stuck on the bottom side of his switchiness, we're both finding ourselves waiting for the other to top.

It's kinda funny, actually, and something that only happens to two switches who switch between themselves. I'm told that our switching back and forth is uncommon. I actually think it's weird that people stay on one side or the other in their relationships, and can't imagine ever doing something that crazy. Maybe that's my Gemini nature, but I would get bored and irritated very quickly with a situation like that. I understand that most everyone else in the kink community picks one side and stays there, and that we're in the minority. Just can't wrap my head around it.

During the past week, The Locked One has been in his cage 6 of the 7 days and nights. There was some redness and chafing going on yesterday, so he came out last night in order to heal. I've spent some time teasing and doing some cbt, so he's been extra horny. A few nights back he attached the sling to our big-ass bed, and licked me for about a half-hour, then used the hitachi on me.  He alternated bewteen the two for god-only-knows-how-long, and I came several times. I stopped counting at six. It was unbelievable. He's cum a few times during the week, but not nearly as much as I have. I can always tell when he's at his horniest because he texts me practically nonstop all day about all the ideas he has for doing the kinky shit that he dreams up. And he dreams BIG.  His mother summed him up best when she told me, "he always did his own thing." If she only knew how true that was...

We're going to Sinsations in Leather in Chicago in a couple of weeks, where the Locked One will do a presentation on Chastity Play.  I'm helping him pull together the presentation, and looking forward to working together on that.

We'll post up photos soon of a fun scene we did today: got ten people tied up and suspended on our bed. It was insanely fun, and I have the rope marks to prove it.

Keyholder

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Lucky Girl

These are some of the reasons why I'm lucky:
1. Within six days of being told my job will disappear, I had four interviews set up and one job offer.
2. The Locked One built a new toy for a local kinky group, and we got to do some product testing last night and today (see photo).  And yes, those are sparkly leg warmers and sequence 5" heels. It's chilly here.
3. I had the Locked One locked up again.


Monday, January 25, 2010

A load of crap just dumped on my head.

That's what it feels like anyway. As of the end of February, I don't have a job. I kinda knew this was coming, and my brother is my landlord, so given the rest of the world's woes, this news is small beans. But it's really a buzz kill, and the stress has drastically reduced both my sex drive and my desire to top.  And it's tax season, which means dealing with money yucki-ness. So not sure how much locking and loading will be going on.
-Key"holder"

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Unlocked again...

I only managed to hold out a couple of nights before letting my horny wet girly parts take over, and release him.  I just can't go very long without sex, and prefer to cum with both of us cumming.  Thursday night I did pretty good not bailing on my plans to tease and torment him.  While tied and blindfolded, I fucked his ass for a while, sucked the tip of his locked-up dick, and didn't let him cum. It was delicious. But when Friday night rolled around, I just needed him inside me, pounding away. I noticed this time around that after a day or so, he was more touchy--tickling, grabbing ass, pinching nipples.  We tend to be touchy-feely anyway, but he was in my space more so than usual.  And the sexual tension seemed extra thick.  Almost like he was watching for a sign, any sign, that I would release him and let him release.  I've read about the way guys in chastity become more submissive or attentive towards their keyholders, but never really experienced that. Maybe this was our version of that scenario.  I don't desire him to change into my subby-boy who licks my boot heels and worships me while doing my laundry. I just like how my stomach flips with anticipation every time I look at the key hanging around my wrist, and how he can make my nipples hard by just nibbling on my neck and asking me what we're gonna do tonight, and how his eyes get really desperate when I'm teasing him, and how he has handed all of the choice to me if he will cum on any given day.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

locked again

So I was locked back up last night again. Keyholder was tried and a bit sleepy so in middle of a TV show she put the PA-5000 on a curled up next to me and driffed off to sleep. So we will see what she has in store for my locked cock in the next few days, maybe nothing locked and left alone, maybe tease and not cumming or some hot sex and cumming. She was asking about some elect stuff this morning and she was at a elect workshop last week so maybe some of that, Time will tell

We may be doing a  bondage photo shoot on the new bed soon with both of  getting tried up by someone else .It should be lots of fun.

Locked (and horny)

Sunday, January 3, 2010

A New Year of Sex

This past weekend actually wasn't too filled up with busy-ness, or my daughter, so we took advantage of it by spending as much time as possible naked and doing kinky things. On New Year's Eve we attended three different parties. The first was a formal vanilla dinner party with my brother, his wife, and a bunch of their friends. The second was a private kinky play party, and the third private party involved a mix of kinky/swingers/half-naked/drunk people. All three locations were fun, just different. 

The first get-together involved us wearing formal clothing and sitting nicely at a fancy table answering questions about our careers and how we spent our holidays, and eating Cornish game hens. At the second party, I had the Locked One strapped down all helpless on a bondage table, with thick nylon straps securing every part of his body, where I teased his dick for a while and had the dick killer on long enough where he was writhing and whimpering in pain.  When we heard people counting down the new year, I quick jumped on his cock and pounded in time to the count-down.  We brought in the new year with a big wet kiss and a big wet cock.  We finally left for the third party after recovering from our orgasms. The best part about the location of the third party was that it had a big whirlpool in the bathroom, which felt great since it was about zero degrees outside. We headed home late, and tried to sleep in, which didn't work too well.

Friday night I tied up the Locked One, fucked his ass with my big purple dick, then fisted him (see photo!), didn't let him cum, then locked him up. 




Saturday night, I tied him up again, fucked his ass with my big purple dick again, then I started getting really horny and decided to slide up and down him for a while, reverse cowgirl style.  It may have been more of a pounding action, now that I think about it.  He completely lost his wad within no time at all.  Afterwards, I told him the least he could do is get me off, which he did, and then some.  He used the hitachi on me while pinning me down, so there was some very intense orgasming happening. I simultaneously love it and hate it when he does that. This was a night that I wasn't really sure who was topping whom, or when the switch actually occurred, but it was all really fun, and it's one of the things that I love about switching.  I didn't lock him back up because he had a big red swollen area on the side of his shaft that will need to heal, probably from the PA-5000 causing pinching. Dammit.

Sunday morning I woke up thinking about a position I wanted to get the Locked one in.  I wanted his legs pulled really far back and spread apart, almost upside down, so I could have lots of access to ram his ass. So we gave it a try this afternoon, and wow did it work well.  In the position, he can't get away when things are getting really intense, and it's easy to suck him off and fuck his ass at the same time.  He had the classic panicked look on his face as I continued to stroke him after he came, and I wouldn't pull out right away. 

After the healing is done, we will resume the locking-up. It was a really fun weekend, and a great way to start 2010. And 2009 was one of the best years of my life, thanks to the Locked One. We seem to tolerate each other well enough...

Keyholder